Simpson’s attack started a landslide upon our lives, that has left us upside down and backwards and inside out! We here, at this site, all know what an impossible task it is to live beyond murder! For our family? – We can never unbury ourselves from the rubble!
Our son Ian and his best friend Derrick, both grew up being friends with Simpson. Ian and Saskia were only two years apart, inseparable since Saskia’s birth, Saskia was Ian’s closest confidant, best friend, and beloved sister. And Ian has been so severely betrayed by Simpsons murder of his sister!
And our youngest child, Kessa, who is only 13 – witnessed all that happened here that morning! Her sisters murder, her parents and friend attacked! She lives with the complete devastation of her life, and her family!
Simpson has taken too much from us! He took our beloved Saskia, it the most brutal and heinous way! He took our Constitutional Rights of Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness! He took away our trust in others, our sense of safety in our own home. He took every good moment ever to come in our lives – and tainted it with sorrow and sadness that Saskia is not there to enjoy it with us! Most of all, he has left us to live, with HORROR! Something that is profoundly unimaginable to live with, and yet for us, we have NO CHOICE!
I will spend every moment I continue to live hearing Saskia’s screams! And feeling guilty, for not taking my leave of this life to be with her. I am forever torn between two plains of reality – life, and death! Because I KNOW THE ANSWER, to the question everyone asks… “What would Saskia want me to do now?” I had this conversation with her once. She said to me “momma, if I were to die, I would want you there with me! Don’t wait a single second! Hurry, because I would need you to be there with me! I couldn’t stand to be alone!” Every second spent living, is spent forsaking my Saskia! I do not simply wish for death, I physically ache for it with every breathe!